As I write these song stories I'm struck with the themes that are weaved throughout...they tell the story of my journey to know God honestly...in a way that doesn't lie. Though it's somewhat hard to really admit it, I know and am convinced of many things but I still sometimes disbelieve the fundamentals. Pascal said it well, "I've seen too much to deny - too little to be sure". It's one thing to know and trust God in times of plenty but a whole other thing to know and trust Him amidst sickness, death, and suffocating doubt. This song is the prayer of the drowning, lost and confused, begging for the ear of God.
Could I talk to You?
Are You listening?
Would You let me ask the questions
That burn inside of me?
I am reaching out
I am holding on
Feel like one of Your affections
But not quite like I belong
Like I belong
I am numb today
Everything's a blur
I've seen too much to deny
Too little to be sure
Like a prodigal
Like a distant son
I can see You from a distance
But I'm too ashamed to come
Will You see me through this valley?
Will You hold my outstretched hands?
As the world caves in around me
Will You help me understand?
Help me understand, help me understand
I am scared to fall
Scared to carry on
Am I losing to the cynic
After running for so long?
There's a child in me
Lost in mystery
But it's buried underneath the earth
Longing to be free
