My momma gave me up when I was four years old She didn't destroy my body but she killed my soul Now it's cold 'cause I'm sleeping in my back seat I understand the spirit's willing but my flesh is weak
Let him speak, let me speak
I never had a chance to dream Ten years old and finding love in dirty magazines Ms. December you remember I bought you twice Now I'm thirty plus and still paying the price
Had a sister that I barely knew Kind of got separated by the age of two Same momma different daddy so we couldn't fake it I saw my sister's daddy beat her in the tub naked Take it serious the demons in a man's mind The same man on rape charges now he's doing time Crack followed and like daddy prison thirteen years Haven't seen her, I guess she's traded tears for fears
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Shout, Shout, let it all out These are the things I can do without so come on Come on I'm talking to you, so come on
Sex was how I made it through Without someone to teach you love what else is there to do See where I'm from they call you gay Say you ain't a man, show them you ain't no punk Get all the girls you can, a simple plan that still haunts me even now today Back to seventeen and got a baby on the way No GED all I see is failure in my eyes, if you're listening and remember I apologize
I was raised falling in the church Made mistakes and heard the Lord's calling in the church After service in the parking lot getting high Wanted to be accepted so bad I was willing to die Even tried to tell the Pastor, but he couldn't see years of low self-esteem and insecurities Church taught me how to shout and how to speak in tongues But preacher, teach me how to live now when the tongue is done, help me
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See I, See I, I just wanna let it go, just wanna let it go, just let it go Jesus please, on my knees can't You hear me crying You said to put it in Your hands and Lord I'm really trying You wasn't lying when You said You reap what you sow Like that night momma died, it's hard to let it go You adopted me, cared for me, changed my name But I cursed at you, lied to you and left you pain It's not strange I can still see it in my head To know for hours you were lying there in that bed
If you're listening to this record If it's day or night If your momma is still living treat your momma right Don't be like me and let that moment slip away And be careful 'cause you can't take back what you say To my real momma if you're listening I'm letting it go To my father, I forgive you, 'cause you didn't know that the pain was the preparation for my destiny And one more thing Lord let my son be a better man than me
