John Reuben Album: Professional Rapper Track: I Haven't Been Myself
I Haven't Been Myself Lyrics
I'm not alright, I haven't been myself lately I'm not okay with the way I've let my thoughts overtake Take me away to the place I should have gone I hope I'm not here for long I'll see you when I'm better I'll see you when I'm better
It's gotta get worse to get better It went from no way, never to okay, whatever Slowly but surely and sure as sure is blurry Now things that once were me are no longer Every so often God reminds me But I'm always there in front to blind me I value my pride more than peace of mind My precious pride There was a time when I had control but I let it go I watched the world passin' slowmo My life's ahead of me I can't catch up Stuck in a rut I went too willingly These thoughts are killing me I wish I could control myself but I can't Or can I? Man I'm gone I hope I'm not here for long It's just a visit Ashamed of who I've become It's not really me Or is it?
I'm not alright, I haven't been myself lately I'm not okay with the way I've let my thoughts overtake Take me away to the place I should have gone I hope I'm not here for long I'll see you when I'm better
Thoughts lead to emotion which led to action I hate the fact that it happened "The Lord can forgive and forget" But I'm not able to do it Maybe there is where the problem lies I'm unable to forgive myself plus I'm too proud to ask for help Whelp, sorry for who I've become I guess circumstances can leave you numb Plus, I refused accountability It seemed like such small things you found in me I called you secluded and illuded to the fact that your concerns were silly Don't over-react Now looking back in hindsight, heh I'm able to see that you were right Is it too late for me? I know it's not It's just up to me to choose to stop
I'm not alright, I haven't been myself lately I'm not okay with the way I've let my thoughts overtake Take me away to the place I should have gone I hope I'm not here for long I'll see you when I'm better
I'm not alright, I haven't been myself lately I'm not okay with the way I've let my thoughts overtake Take me away to the place I should have gone I hope I'm not here for long Better I'll see you when I'm better
I'm not alright, I haven't been myself lately I'm not okay with the way I've let my thoughts overtake Take me away to the place I should have gone I hope I'm not here for long
