Coins through my pockets, days through my fingers I cannot find them, try as I may For I have spent them on foolish pleasures In a foreign country so far away
Now I am wandering across this landscape Walking in circles by my own choice No fire in the heavens, no wind in the treetops I cannot see you or hear your voice
When I'm out here on my own Surrounded and alone When I squander your mercy As an ungrateful man Can you still find me hiding in the corner? Innocent convict, defiant lamb
I should know better, that's what I'm thinking Pleading ignorance won't do for me I'm not mistaken, I'm not misguided This road I've taken deliberately
So why am I running? I've got excuses But no good reasons to ease my shame I am not worthy to be your servant To live in your household, to bear your name
When I'm out here on my own Haunted by the home That I once knew so well As a God-fearing man Can you still find me, this great pretender? Behind the mask a defiant lamb
I thought my heart would be like a garden Where life would spring up From seeds you've sown But little by little, the thorns took over And now my heart has turned to stone
That's why it's easy to be so careless Betray this birthright from above To curse my reflection in the mirror Hurting someone you truly love
When I'm out here all alone In this valley of dry bones My prayers are mirages And my "faith" is just a scam Will you still find me, is there a road home For a bankrupt believer, defiant lamb? When I'm out here all alone ... A defiant lamb
